"BLackout"

With the problem im facing, i wanted to be alone and solve it on my own.. My parents scolded me like im a 6 yr old child yesterday, i just did'nt say a thing cause i know its my fault, credit card is a personal matter and should not be shared to anyone. I beg and asked help from them, told them got no one to turn to…but they said

they cant just give me that amount..i have to contact my friend..her relatives and ask where i could locate her…..HOw? ? ? ! I already talked to the person incharge in the legal agency and told me if il pay in full i can have discount..but it would only be upto May 15.. As ive seen the area… there tables are filed up with papers on list of persons to be contact to pay there debts, they have 10 employees who's job is to call and remind the card holder to pay there bills…the person in charge told me that banks this time is very strict cause some run away from  there obligations thats why they hired them to follow up and to make some actions… i cant explain the feeling of being in that area…i felt embarrassed to be in that situation…Thats why from there i  went immediately to my parents…i must bit the deadline…my mom said that i should leave something valuable somewhat a colateral in exchange of the amount i asked….i was shocked of her idea…i cant believed she would said things like that on me….she explained to me that she needs to do it for me to learn and asked me to let my friend pay before i get the item…she'l be getting my necklace, phone and watch…..its like im totally BLACKOUT after hearing it…..i told her..il just think it over….i left…..crying…..