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i should be honest with myself..even though ive said that i have  already move on with Mr.OR  but still there are times that i do missed him..i already stop communicating with…ive tried to entertain some suitors, tried to meet new friends…and the worst of all ive tried to go online in the chatroom  cause im bored and wanted to talk with someone..i asked if anyone who would give out there number and willing to have a clean conversation..to cut it short ive talk with this guy named "gyle" he has husky voice and he seemed to be nice..he was asking me for cam to cam but i declined, and told him not now..maybe some other time..i dont want to see his face cause i dont want to be disappointed nor him to be, but two days after he kept on insisting me for cam to cam..was nervous to see his face online..but when i view his cam…its like i dont want to talk to him anymore…he looks like one of the guys in the market wearing shorts with no shirt on top…it was a total disappointment…i must stop that thing cause i dont want to be develope with that guy…NEVER! his too opposite with MR.OR (physically, mentally…in all aspect!)he did not finish college because his busy and still busy with his Barkada, a chain smoker, got nothing to do with his life other than sleeping, eating ,smoke, barkadas and going online. well im open to friendship with him, that time im more of an adviser to him.. i was looking for someone to advice/listen to my probs, but it seems like he has more problems than me. i told him to finish college…quit his vices and start to think of his future..your parents are not there all the time.. we can communicate thru text but not anymore on the phone…my time is gold and il only give it to someone special…id rather be in pain with someone i love..than felt nothing with just anyone.while talking with that guy MR.OR kept on texting and calling on my cell and wanted us to talk..i just ignored him…part of me wants to see him.i do regret for not answering it….and with my suitors most of them are just good with lip service..felt nothing for them thats why i never give a chance to date with them.