To Let GO

To let go…
Does not mean to stop caring
It means I cannot do it for someone else
It is not to cut myself off
It is the realization that I cannot control another.

To let go…
Is not to enable
But to allow learning from natural consequences
It is to admit powerlessness
Which means the outcome is not in my hands
 

To let go…
Is not to try to change or blame another
I can only change myself
It is not to care for
But to care about.

 
To let go…
Is not to fix
But to be supportive
It is not to judge
But to allow another to be a human being.

 
To let go…
Is not to be in the middle arranging the outcome
But to allow others to effect their own outcome
It is not to be protective
It is to permit another to face their reality.

 

To let go…
Is not to deny, but to accept
Is not to nag, scold, or argue
But to search out my own shortcomings
And try to correct them.

 
To let go…
Is not to adjust everything to my desires
But to take each day as it comes
Is not to criticize or regulate anyone
But to try to become whatever dream I can be.

 
To let go…
Is not to regret the past
But to grow and live for the future
Is to fear less
And learn to love more.

 
And since I do love you
So I will let you go!

Goodbye Mr.OR

This time around i will confront him about "US" i know its not good to confront him cause its like im sweeping him away from me, ive been trying to understand him, but as ive  said before everytime i want it off he always asked me to stay…STAY???! for what???! thats what ive been thinking about…his just good with words but no actions..havent seen any effort that he have excerted. Mr. OR is a resident anesthesiologist, they must be good with words or making a person feel comfortable right before the operation..maybe his applying techniques on me..which works pretty well…That must be one of the reason im stranded with this kind of relationship (FULL OF LIP SERVICE) Im planning to end it and move forward…his been so unfair. Its like a one sided relationship..ive told him about my past relationship before and how stupid i am to go for that kind of guys..but as days past ive realized that Mr. OR and my ex's are alike… No wonder i like him..I hate myself for giving time…my all for that type of guys…I must fix myself before entering a new one..if not il just love myself more..And i wont allow any GUYS to hurt me again…i think its time for me to sing the song "IRREPLACEABLE" by Beyonce I really love the lyrics of that song" youve got me twisted..you must not know about me..i can have another you in a minute" i can have another you by tomorrow…Since im not youre everything how about il be nothing ..Nothing without you, I wont shed a tear for you….i wont lose a wink of sleep…………..replacing you is just so EASY!" Well i hope its EASY for me..GOODLUCK to myself then…i hope il be brave enough to talk about ending it tomorrow…..