im back!

at last im okay now….im debt free. il never ever be back with that situation again..im now more careful especially with "friends" well i dont really know up to know the true measurement of friendship…but theres no need to measure as long as we wont let anyone fool on us..used and abused us…like any other relationship it must be give and take…cause it wont be consider "friend" if one keeps on giving while the other is just there to recieve…thats a different story..even a mother and child relationship wont fit on that..only to parasites

"BLackout"

With the problem im facing, i wanted to be alone and solve it on my own.. My parents scolded me like im a 6 yr old child yesterday, i just did'nt say a thing cause i know its my fault, credit card is a personal matter and should not be shared to anyone. I beg and asked help from them, told them got no one to turn to…but they said
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soft heart hard headed

I would consider this day as my most unforgetable…saddest day..depressed….down part of my life..I never thought it would reach to this point..Im blaming it all to my stupid SELF..Long before this thing happened my ex husband kept on telling me to check all my bills especially my credit card and, but i've been very good and i have a soft heart with my friends…untill such time this friend of mine was asking to have my card swipe on her item and she promise to pay before the bill would arrieve…we kept on doing that almost every month..she usually pay before the due date..untill such time she earned my full trust..
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Lets hope it does not reach that style here

My heart nearly stopped when a friend of mine sent the image above with the subject line “How Long before its here?” My response? NEVER! Apparently the Jeans bikini Pants is a trend instigated by the Brazilians that is now infecting teen in Japan!,which is a shame seeing as the Japanese are usually so on point when it comes to fashion.GrabeH…ewan ko nalng pag na uso yan dito…mas latong maraming ma rape…Good for the guys..im sure they like seeing girls wearing that kind of style.
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The 7 Types of People to Avoid in Dating

As ive surf the net i found this clip…-> you are looking for a relationship, it takes patience to find someone you can respect, whose heart is open to you, and who you can be with without driving you up a wall. Good mate material is out there, but while you are looking, don’t waste your time and money on the Dirty Sevens. The underlying problem with the Dirty Sevens is a kind of selfishness that makes them incapable of giving your needs fair play. They lack empathy (the ability to put themselves in your shoes

Who Are They?
Don’t give up your freedom and happiness for these guys and gals. They will always put you and your needs last. Ladies, read on to see who these men are and what you can do about them

 ScarMan. Talks continuously about his ex and the past, to the exclusion of everything else, including you. You feel like saying, “Hello! You are out with me!” If you want to feel first in a man’s heart, throw ScarMan back on the dating beach.

SideMan. Married or living with someone, but looking for some excitement on the side, with no intention of creating a real relationship. Walk away, and don’t look back. He wants to use you. If it takes a lie, he will lie to get what he wants, without a thought for the pain he causes.

CrazyMan. Has so many quirks, a hospital wing of psychotherapists couldn’t figure him out. He’ll drive you nuts if you give him a long-term try.

GuyMan. Likes guys better than girls, but pretends to be straight. The fact that he is lying to you about his sexuality is what makes him one of the Dirty Seven. Let him go on his journey of discovering his true identity without you.

YAPpie (Young and Poor). Has the benefit of youth on his side, but not much else: no money, and no job prospects. You pay for everything and drive him around, too. Do less for him. He is a species of parasite that survives by living off women and will eventually move on.

OLMan (Old Loser Man). The YAPpie, grown older but not wiser. He has not provided for his future. He is looking to you to do that for him. He was lazy, selfish, and clueless in his youth and has remained the same in his old age. Do not get involved with him until you find out where and how he lives. Go there with him. If he is penniless, especially beware of how he lives.

BagMan. Difficult children from different marriages, some of whom live with him, multiple alimony payments, and lots of bitterness over past woes are just some of the baggage this man brings to the relationship. Give up on him before you are left holding the bag.

all about him

i should be honest with myself..even though ive said that i have  already move on with Mr.OR  but still there are times that i do missed him..i already stop communicating with…ive tried to entertain some suitors, tried to meet new friends…and the worst of all ive tried to go online in the chatroom  cause im bored and wanted to talk with someone..i asked if anyone who would give out there number and willing to have a clean conversation..to cut it short ive talk with this guy named "gyle" he has husky voice and he seemed to be nice..he was asking me for cam to cam but i declined, and told him not now..maybe some other time..i dont want to see his face cause i dont want to be disappointed nor him to be, but two days after he kept on insisting me for cam to cam..was nervous to see his face online..but when i view his cam…its like i dont want to talk to him anymore…he looks like one of the guys in the market wearing shorts with no shirt on top…it was a total disappointment…i must stop that thing cause i dont want to be develope with that guy…NEVER! his too opposite with MR.OR (physically, mentally…in all aspect!)he did not finish college because his busy and still busy with his Barkada, a chain smoker, got nothing to do with his life other than sleeping, eating ,smoke, barkadas and going online. well im open to friendship with him, that time im more of an adviser to him.. i was looking for someone to advice/listen to my probs, but it seems like he has more problems than me. i told him to finish college…quit his vices and start to think of his future..your parents are not there all the time.. we can communicate thru text but not anymore on the phone…my time is gold and il only give it to someone special…id rather be in pain with someone i love..than felt nothing with just anyone.while talking with that guy MR.OR kept on texting and calling on my cell and wanted us to talk..i just ignored him…part of me wants to see him.i do regret for not answering it….and with my suitors most of them are just good with lip service..felt nothing for them thats why i never give a chance to date with them.

BUsy

Ive been allergic with the word busy…im over with that word since i stop going out with MR. O.R but lately ive noticed that the word busy  is such an easy excuse if one wants to get rid of someone..its direct and needs no explaination. Mr. OR is back again to his old self…i dont know what his upto that he keeps on texting me again now that ive move on…I hate doing it to him what he does to me before like making some excuses..that his BUsY! but this time around ive given him a dose of his own medicine….now that im getting used to being alone again..his presence annoys me so much….his too late…its very true that only "time" can heal the wounds…he wants us to talk and patch things up..but i just replied his favorite line"sorry but im busy" still he insisted but i just ignored his message…

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"No one is listening until you make a mistake."

" dying inside"

Everything has been erased, first it all started on my digi cam ive pressed something it as ive checked my pics "no images found" ,and the worst part of it….i havent transfered all the pics in my pc.huhuhuhu its like ive lost a part of me again, week after that my sim was blocked and i dont have the Puk code to open it. So need to start again with my new EMPTY sim..EVERYTHING is EMPTY.spiritually EMPTY! im emotionally EMPTY! no love life…my friends are busy with there lives..no one to hang on…. financialY EMPTY! JUSt paid all the bills…mentally EMPTY! im totally blank…After everything thats been happening to my life i feel like an EMPTY SHELL AGAIN..wondering whats in store for me…Maybe theres  a reason for this. Im tired of solving and figuring out my problem…Other than GOD…sometimes i do wish that there would be someone out there who would is attentive enough to listen all the pain that im going thru..sincere..not judgmental and someone whom i can trust…and most of all someone who wont ask something in return from me after. Ive always been a "friend" to my friends…but every time i need one, i have no one except myself…I cant even pour it out to my parents cause i know they wont understand..for sure instead of asking them to listen to my pains… il be getting from them would be there SERMONS and aside from that i dont want to them to worry…im emotionally down today…cant help but cry….my problem is not that BIG compared to others…im not asking any fast solutions…all i want i someone who will listen…..and would care to know that i do still EXIST

Live With It

          When pain can be avoided, it will be masochistic for anyone to insist living it.  When you are ill, by all means go find cure.  When you are stressed, it is advisable you find a positive activity that can calm you down.  But sometimes pain is unavoidable.  Those who live with a terminal cancer or who have just experienced major grief such as the death of loved ones, relationship that fell apart, etc., either temporarily or permanently, have to live with their pain and discomfort.  In this situation there is no escape, no activity can distract them from the pain.  Some people may resort to temporary relief such as drugs or alcohol only to sink lower and lower each time.  And the more you resist, the more conflict it generates, the more you are in pain.  The only way out is to befriend your pain or grief, watch it, feels it as it is without justifying or condemning it.  It is painful and uncomfortable, sure, but it is only a small part of the big picture.  You can’t probably see it that way when you are overwhelmed with this powerful feeling, but remember everything is fleeting, impermanent.  When it is winter now, shouldn’t you be rejoicing that spring is just around the corner and summer will be coming soon?  Your pleasure doesn’t last, neither does your pain.  Can you remember the immediate problems you faced five years ago, twenty years ago? If you do, does it still have the same kind of emotional entanglement it caused you then?  So, this one too shall go away, if you can see it in the right perspective it really isn’t that bad.  Clinging to pain is as suicidal as clinging to pleasure.  Don’t take it too personall